It's Raining, It's Pouring

Real Talk: The universe is out to get me.

Okay, probably not, but it certainly feels that way right now.  My birthday is on Thrusday and honestly, I just want to relax.  Zero stress. Please.  Ugh.  Why is it so bad, you ask ?

• We had to put down sir Loki last week.  He was my first ever pet rat and I loved him more than I thought possible. Insert broken heart emoji here.  It was just the worst.  Sleep well, little dude. 

• I found out that my job wants to convert my contract position to a full time position (which is what they said when they originally hired me).  Which is super yay.  Except they want to offer me an "assistant" position over the "coordinator" position that I've been doing, which results in a $6/hour pay cut.  Which means I'll have to get a part time job on top of a normal 40/week full time job just to pay my monthly bills and oh, I don't know...eat food ?  Unfortunately this just causes more and more stress for the long run unless I can get a new job pronto.
• B and I almost broke up.  No, I don't want to talk about, and yes we're good again. Still super stressful.
• I dropped my phone in water and now the speaker isn't working well.  Insignificant, I know, but when you're already having a shitty time, it kinda just makes it worse.
• The brakes on my car have decided that they no longer want to do the one job they have: stopping my car.  So now it's currently in the shop.  For who knows how long and for some ungodly amount of dollars (that I don't have and REALLY don't have a way of making up), I'm sure.

Suffice to say, my stress level is so high, I constantly feel like I can't breathe.  Literally, I've almost used up my inhaler for nothing other than just trying to not hyperventilate from stress. I'm not trying to complain, but honestly I just need to get it all out. 

I've enlisted the help of a trusted friend to help with the resume (even though she's insanely busy and I feel terrible asking but I'm desperate for the help and I just know she's amazing at what she does and this is the longest sentence of my life but I love her).  I'm trying to focus on things I can control and trying to stay positive. It's not working very well, but points for trying right ? I'm hoping that everything will balance itself out and this means that super awesome amazing things are going to happen for me soon.  I really hope so, otherwise I think I might just have a heart attack. 

Any suggestions to help manage stress ?!

People You Meet At Shows

I was going to make this part of Monday's post, but it made the post unnecessarily long. However, I've been irked about it since Sunday, so I thought this would be a nice follow up/now I can stop being annoyed about it.

I love going to shows: indoor, outdoor, big, small. I've met some awesome people because of it and we say hi whenever we see each other, play catch up, and generally enjoy just rocking out together.  I love seeing people let loose and dance around, I'm always looking for new makeup/outfit combinations, and seeing people's reactions to the show whether it's their first or 50th time seeing the band.

And then there's the people I avoid like the plague.  If you've ever been to a music venue or festival, I'm pretty sure you've encountered them.

The People You Wish You Didn't Meet At Shows:

// The Over-Doer

This person dresses in a way that you KNOW would never go out in public on a daily basis like that. They're definitely trying too hard. I'm all about autonomy and to each their own, but I have a problem with people putting out an image of what they think they should wear for shock value and then seeming offended when they get that reaction.  Enough is enough.  I can tell you went overboard for this and honestly, it's just awkward. Honorable mention in this category goes to the people looking like they're going out to dinner at the Ritz, wearing 4 inch heels with their little clutch.  This is a rock concert and we're standing in mud.  Shout-out to the dude in the white polo, purple shorts and BOAT SHOES, looking annoyed at the Manson concert.

// The Drunk High-Fiver

This guy.  This guy makes me hate things.  Not at first, because at first he's only slightly inebriated, so it's all in good fun.  You and your fellow concert goers indulge him as he runs around trying to get as many high fives as possible.  You laugh and roll your eyes.  Then he has a little more to drink and comes back again.  You still laugh.  When he comes back for a 3rd time, pretty drunk and possibly missing an article or two of clothing (presumably because he's spilled alcohol on them) the annoyance sets in.  Okay dude, we get it, you're drunk and high fives seem like a great idea.  Any subsequent times are met with me giving you a death glare and possibly high fiving you so hard you high five yourself in the face.

// The Videographer

These are the people that experience the entire event through the screen of their device.  I will be the first one to break out my phone to take a quick clip of my favorite song, or a million photos of some cool lighting happening.  I want memories.  I can only assume these people want to watch the entire thing over again once the show is done. What do you do with 2 hours of a recorded concert ? Do you really go home and watch it again ?  I can't imagine you make any money off your shaky iPhone (or WORSE, iPad) video.  What is the purpose of viewing the entire show you spent money on to see live if you're only going to watch it digitally the whole time anyway ? Also, I'm short and you're blocking my view. Go die.

// The Unenthusiastic

This is the opposite of the Videographer, although they are staring at a screen during the show.  This person sits through the whole show, barely looks at the stage, can be seen checking Facebook and Reddit throughout the set and generally looks like they would rather be anywhere but where they are. Why are you here ? You bum me out.  Go home.

// The Soap Opera Couple

This is the couple that gets so drunk they have to use each other to stand up, unsuccessfully, yet manages to have a very animated argument in a very public way. I get it.  A concert/festival is the perfect venue to stage whatever dysfunction you need to display.  When you pull my attention away from what I paid decent money to see, I want to hurt you.  No one cares about whatever trivial thing you've decided at THAT MOMENT is so important it can't wait until after the show.  This is usually brought on only after copious amounts of alcohol have been consumed.  I get it, you guys want to make a scene and go home and have awesome make up sex.  Cool, whatever. Don't interrupt my night for it.

Then you get the REAL weirdos:

Anyway, I know this is only the tip of the iceberg.  What type of people irk you at concerts ?

Is Netflix-ing a job ?

Yay Wednesdays ! Yay Confession time ! Boo I have no one to link up to for these anymore. Oh well.  I have random thoughts that only do well during these confession posts, so here you are !

// I want someone to pay me to watch Netflix and hang out on the internet all day.  How does one make this happen ?

// I know the week is half over, but I seriously wish it was Friday already.

// My dogs are spoiled.  And I do nothing to stop it. I no longer make my bed because this happens as soon as I get up:

// I was at Krispy Kreme with B the other day, pointing out all the donuts I wanted (even though I always get original glazed) and I turned to him and said, "That's how rich I want to be.  I want to be able to walk into a donut shop and say to the guy, 'I'll take them all.'" For the record, I don't have a donuts addiction, I can stop anytime I want.

What donuts ? I didn't eat them all if that's what you're asking.

// Netflix put up the final season of White Collar, so naturally I have to watch the whole thing from the beginning and there goes my life.  Also, Doctor Who Series 8 will make an appearance in August. Goodbye any free time I've ever had.

Since I really don't want to do much of anything today, I'll leave you with some White Collar bloopers for when you randomly need a laugh (and no, you don't need to know anything about the show to watch people mess up !)

Leave some random confessions in the comments so I don't feel so alone :P

From Zero to 13.1...Again

It's about time I linked up with my favorite blogger girls (and favorite in real life girls !) for their Training for Tuesday linkup.  I've been hesitant because I've been lazy.  Not lazy about posting, but running.  However, this blog is an outlet for me, a way to throw things out into technology land and see what happens.  So here we go.

I Don't Know How To Human

Fun fact: I don't drink alcohol. So this morning as I stare at myself in the mirror, trying to become a human being, after about 4 hours of sleep, and feeling like death, I start to wonder: how the hell do you people go to a show, get drunk on all the beers, stay up till two in the morning and function the next day ?! I feel old.

Seriously, if there is some secret-ey hangover miracle cures for the I-didn't-drink-but-I-feel-like-I-have-a-hangover girl over here (i.e how to avoid the headache, dark under eye circles, and overall lack of motor skills) that would be A-MAZE-ING. I think the only reason I pass for human currently is that I never took my makeup off from last night.

Okay, shenanigans aside...last night was awesome. Got to see Marilyn Manson for the first time and Smashing Pumpkins for the 2nd. LOVED. IT. I would absolutely go see Manson again as I think this "co-headling" tour isn't bringing out his best stage presence. And Smashing Pumpkins powered through all their radio hits and surprised me with a little "Landslide" and acoustic performance of "Disarm". My ears were super happy.

Enjoy some super grainy (we had lawn seats) but still awesome photos from last night.

Linking up with Biana for the more Weekending Fun !