Monday, August 17, 2015

It's Raining, It's Pouring

Real Talk: The universe is out to get me.

Okay, probably not, but it certainly feels that way right now.  My birthday is on Thrusday and honestly, I just want to relax.  Zero stress. Please.  Ugh.  Why is it so bad, you ask ?

  • We had to put down sir Loki last week.  He was my first ever pet rat and I loved him more than I thought possible. Insert broken heart emoji here.  It was just the worst.  Sleep well, little dude. 

  • I found out that my job wants to convert my contract position to a full time position (which is what they said when they originally hired me).  Which is super yay.  Except they want to offer me an "assistant" position over the "coordinator" position that I've been doing, which results in a $6/hour pay cut.  Which means I'll have to get a part time job on top of a normal 40/week full time job just to pay my monthly bills and oh, I don't food ?  Unfortunately this just causes more and more stress for the long run unless I can get a new job pronto.
  • B and I almost broke up.  No, I don't want to talk about, and yes we're good again. Still super stressful.
  • I dropped my phone in water and now the speaker isn't working well.  Insignificant, I know, but when you're already having a shitty time, it kinda just makes it worse.
  • The brakes on my car have decided that they no longer want to do the one job they have: stopping my car.  So now it's currently in the shop.  For who knows how long and for some ungodly amount of dollars (that I don't have and REALLY don't have a way of making up), I'm sure.
Suffice to say, my stress level is so high, I constantly feel like I can't breathe.  Literally, I've almost used up my inhaler for nothing other than just trying to not hyperventilate from stress. I'm not trying to complain, but honestly I just need to get it all out. 

I've enlisted the help of a trusted friend to help with the resume (even though she's insanely busy and I feel terrible asking but I'm desperate for the help and I just know she's amazing at what she does and this is the longest sentence of my life but I love her).  I'm trying to focus on things I can control and trying to stay positive. It's not working very well, but points for trying right ? I'm hoping that everything will balance itself out and this means that super awesome amazing things are going to happen for me soon.  I really hope so, otherwise I think I might just have a heart attack. 

Any suggestions to help manage stress ?!


  1. i'm so sorry to hear all this love. i know you said you don't want to talk about it, but i'm virtually here if you need me ;) it sucks so much is going wrong right now, i wish i had words of advice or could do something to help. i know it's easier said than done, but yeah focusing on what you can control and letting go of what you can't is what i try to do. big hugs girl, hope it all works out.

  2. I'm so sorry about all this—I didn't know about B and you don't have to talk about it, but you know you can with me if you want to. Also, so many hugs over Loki. That sucks so hard and I'm so sorry to hear it but little man was lucky to have you while he did. And freaky best friend coincidence, I drop my phone basically daily but last week I dropped my phone getting into the car (seriously?) and I could only hear anything if I had it on speakerphone for a week and then suddenly the earpiece was working again yesterday. I don't even know.

  3. oh no, I'm so sorry to hear about Loki :( I'm also really sorry you are having a rough time lately! That really stinks about your job, hopefully the experience at your current job can help you get a better job quickly.


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