SO Done.

I want to bring you a cheery post on this Thursday/Friday.  I really do.  I want to be excited about the upcoming 3 day weekend.  But right now the only thing I can see is how completely and utterly DONE I am with my current position.

I actually really love my life.  It's been years since I could honestly and happily say that my life is awesome.  I have amazing friends, the best partner in crime I could ask for, and 2 dogs that are pretty much the coolest monsters you'll ever meet.  I'm happy (it's been a LONG time since I've said that and meant it) and healthy and I found an amazing new obsession passion and I'm doing it all in a city that I love.

What I don't love is my job.  And it's not a bad job.  It's honestly the best job I've ever had.  But it is not the best job FOR ME and it's starting to take its toll on me.  I am constantly stressed.  After the performance review on Monday, my stress has felt like it's tripled. I don't sleep well.  My appetite is intermittent at best.  I constantly feel like I'm going 100+ mph and honestly just want to slow down.  I feel like I'm gonna get a complex soon !

I know that it's me and it's absolutely my own fault for feeling like this.  I've tried to fit into the mold of "office manager".  But I'm not sure what people expected when you take a crazy philosopher who can't sit still, who has opinions about EVERYTHING, loves debating about things in order to find the best solution, and shove her behind a desk with a set schedule (but be accessible 24/7), give her boring and mundane tasks to carry out only to tell her it's not good enough.  But I keep hearing I have potential ?

So dear friends, I really wanted to bring you sunshine and rainbows today but I need to use all my energy to stay sane so that I (an other people) can stay alive long enough to make it to our 3 day weekend.  No, I currently don't have any plans.  I promise tomorrow will be better and I can't wait to share some fun Friday Favorites and another linkup !  I hope everyone has a better Thursday/Friday than I am.  Counting down the seconds until I'm out the door...